All my life, I have remembered my dreams, vividly. My creativity is directly tied to this active, aware dream world. The recent rashes of mass murder by people on Prozac and other SSRI uptake medicines leads me to wonder if the distruption and intensification of the dream world and bringing this world into the 'wakening' world is causing these crimes as well as other disorders?
A lonely, picked-on boy was given Prozac (or one of its chemical analogs) like Kip Kinkel in Oregon, like Eric Harris in Colorado This is not a scoop, America: Prozac causes horrible, bizarre flip-outs. It is a fact that has been known for 20 years and that Eli Lilly and the other manufacturers of "selective" serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) have relentlessly denied and are still trying to suppress.
On the very day after the shootings at Virginia Tech, the Journal of the American Medical Association published a study challenging the "black box" warning that the Food and Drug Administration had finally attached to Prozac in October, 2004. "Antidepressants Get a Boost For Use in Teens" read the Wall St. Journal headline. "Despite Warnings on Labels, Study says Benefits Outweigh Risk of Suicidal Tendencies."
The New York Times ran its account of the new pro-Prozac study on the page facing the obituaries of students and faculty members killed at Virginia Tech! "Scales Said to Tip in Favor of Antidepressant Use in Children -A risk of suicidal thoughts is found to be more than offset." You'd think that 33 deaths would more than offset it back.
From the first day they trumpeted Prozac as a cure for all that ails us psychologically, I was very suspicious of it. Since I was born with high intelligence and then whacked by a powerful lightning bolt, my day/night world had been shattered. There was no psychiatric cure for this but I did spend a lot of energy studying whatever I could about the dream world since I was a waking person walking in that dangerous realm.
So recent confessions about how people really think while on SSRIs interests me in a hundred ways: from the Counter Punch article:
Years ago, at a meeting of the Prozac Survivors Support group, I heard Bonnie Leitsch, a flamboyant redhead from Louisville who sounded like Minnie Pearl, try to explain what Prozac did to her thinking:
"It's hard for people to understand. They say 'you must know what you're doing,' but you do not. You cannot distinguish reality. I could never tell if I was awake or asleep. That was the hardest thing for me to determine. I would lay down in bed and I would think 'Now am I dreaming this or am I awake and doing this?" My mind constantly ran, it never would stop. I could be having this conversation with you and the whole time if I was drinking coffee, I could be thinking about running it on my hand and wondering what it would feel like. Thinking irrational thoughts. And yet still able to communicate at what would appear to be a rational level. That's why I think psychiatrists and psychologists and doctors who are dealing with people on Prozac are totally oblivious to what's going on.
I spent my entire life keeping conscious track of my dream life versus my waking life. Indeed, all 'psychics' who 'see' the future have this problem: the dream world is also very magical as well as having some extremely unsettling connections with the real world in ways that are very upsetting. Namely, as far as I can tell, the dream world is also where the religious world and all our creative impulses first take shape or appear in whole.
When I was child, I dealt with this by believing that Pegasus could keep me from falling into the Outer Darkness of the inner soul and so I could sleep at night because there was some way of leaving the dream world in a hurry if necessary. Namely, some dreams have to be escaped. For example, my dreams that began inside a house, it is rapidly getting dark, I try to turn on the lights and the wires are down because of the storm outside and then I see this big oak tree....oops. Entering that dream! The one that is actually my brain replaying that event! Time to exit. Nothing good to learn there!
People suffering from depression need psychological help, namely, they have to find out why they are depressed and then deal with it! Sometimes, there is nothing physical one can do, you can't escape sorrow! Indeed, all attempts at running away from pain only makes it grow worse since it is inside the brain, not outside!
The SSRIs make one feel temporarily better only because it basically pries open the door to the Magic World of Dreams and the flow of emotions from that realm cause temporary joy. But right on the heels of this comes the nightmares who are the Kings of the Realm.
Again, I pictured this as a child as Pegasus: far from being some kindly creature, he is the bearer of lightning, the hardest horse to ride, dangerous, yet if you give him a Golden Apple he will allow you to find the Muses and the Graces who are the guardians of the arts and sciences as well as the Dream Realm: Mt. Olympus. Dr. Freud was a notorious dreamer who thought he could figure out the riddle of the Dream Sphinx who also lives on that mountain and he could then cure people by revealing to them that which they hide from themselves and he thought it was all about sex, which it is in some aspects for the brain is where sex lives, not the organs below.
So human brains are awash with hormones that trigger sexual desires and thoughts which we must suppress because we no longer go into heat but are sexual all the time which is a mess because we can't go around having sex all the time, we must suppress this so we created all sorts of rules and systems controlling sexual contact and responses in the waking life and the brain deals with all this by expressing sexual desire in the sleeping world which is why it is easy having sex suddenly at night.
By Kevin Wilson
Freud maintained the notion that the dream fundamentally acts as the guardian of sleep. When we go to bed, the curtains are drawn, the lights are turned off and in effect we are attempting to disconnect from our reality by extinguishing all external stimuli. During the night, the mind protects the sleeper from being disturbed by reacting to further external stimuli (noise, temperature, light, the need to urinate, numb arm/leg, pain, etc) as well as all internal stimuli (emotions, fears, dissatisfaction, desires, previous day's activity) by manufacturing dreams.
Freud's work was solely concerned with internal stimuli. Essentially, for a person to continue to sleep undisturbed strong negative emotions, forbidden thoughts and unconscious desires have to be disguised or censored in some form or another. Otherwise, confronted by these, the dreamer would become distressed and they would eventually wake up. Therefore the dream, if understood correctly, could lead to a greater understanding of the dreamer's subconscious.
Freud believed the dream to be composed of two parts. The manifest and the latent content. The manifest content can be thought of as what a person would remember as soon as they wake - what they would consciously describe to someone else when recalling the dream. Freud suggested that the manifest content possessed no meaning whatsoever because it was a disguised representation of the true thought underlying the dream.
Aside from this being a simple summary of Freud, the author of this article tells us one of his dreams:
The following is an extract from a dream I had on 16th January 2003:
I am walking through a building where I reach two large doors. I push them with all my force and they open onto playing fields. On the grass is an extremely large bookcase full of encyclopaedias. I stand still and watch two women, both of which are bare breasted. They are standing on top of the bookcase attempting to thread a balloon over some telephone wires. One of them calls out to me: "Thread the balloon for me while I put some clothes on." I agree although it was more difficult than I envisaged. Therefore when she returns she orders me to start again. Instead of attempting it again I run around a running track, although I become tired extremely quickly.
My interpretation: this person is very intellectual and has the capacity to think things through very carefully. But due to this, he is also very headstrong and uncreative because he uses his mind to negate his own emotions including his desire to rape or kill (we all have these desires---it is a very important part of being the species that we are). So he is inside a 'building' which is actually his own reality, his intellect, and to escape himself and find his true feelings, he has to struggle to pry open the doors and he comes out into Mt. Olympus which exists only in the dream world.
It is verdant and full of life. But he is uninterested in this. He looks for and imagines a bookcase out of doors. It is filled with all the knowledge of mankind. Attending this structure are two naked Muses amusing themselves by doing something really strange. These Muses are History and Science. The balloon they are threading through electrical wires are his emotions which he is losing control of.
The fact that it is red means it is all about the passions concerning murder and sex. He has to attend to these feelings by threading the balloon of his desires while he sends away one of the Muses to get dressed and thus, hide herself from him. Then he runs away.
Click on the site and you can read about his further, futile adventures as he struggles to prevent himself from embracing the Graces and the Muses. He is a good writer and recognizes this is an important message dream from his inner brain to his waking self. Which is why I am furious that the entire idea of exploring the dream world has been destroyed by modern psychiatrists!
Talk about throwing the red balloon away along with the baby and the bath!
Dreams aren't merely visual images, they are feelings, and the intensity of feelings is greater than in real life because it is NAKED. And when these dreams happen, the SSRIs in the brain are at work. And if a drug causes them to flow too much, this means the emotional part of the waking mind has to constantly deal with a stream of feelings that are impossible to control or suppress. The dream world no longer has to wait until the Super Ego is asleep: it can stream information all the time!
In the dream world, there are not only no morals, there are no restrictions at all. This is why all the entities who are pictured as part of the dream world have wings, ergo; Pegasus., for example. You don't even have to be human! I write about other living creatures all the time and when I do, I 'channel' them and become one with them inside my brain so I can 'feel' what they feel. I have had amusing dreams about being killer whales, squid, bees, birds and of course many mammals as well as humans.
These are not 'other lives lived' in the sense of reincarnation (I'll admit the killer whale was fun, we hunted seals and played with each other and the sea as seen from below the water's surface is beautiful in the Arctic) but rather, my imagination using information collected from outside to transform myself so I could understand myself better and be able to write or draw things that aren't just myself but outside of myself.
Most people are so embarrassed or befuddled by their own dreams, they deliberately refuse to remember them or think about them so when the dream world collapses under medication increasing the SSRIs, they can't see what is going on since they assume they are always seeing reality.
You can't really see reality because it passes first through the brain and the brain rearranges it accordingly. For example, our eyes see everything upside down and the brain fixes this. Any time this rearrangement breaks down, people appear to be insane or if the system of inhibitions breaks down, madness can occur.
The mania for many people in America to go crazy in churches, for example, and 'speak in tongues' etc. is directly connected to the need to go insane and thus, relieve the pressure. The SSRIs do this only the people taking the drugs can actively suppress it...and sometimes fail. Most people don't like to think about themselves as a collection of ticks, assumptions and inhibitions but this is what we are and most people like to imagine they are in control but they are not, I read the news and the jarring effect of people saying the opposite of reality is amusing in a very dark way.
Just like the refusal to see obvious cause and effects because people want to live in a dream world, the inability to grasp reality is due to wishful thinking coupled with the dark inner forces, that red balloon threading the dangerous electrical wires (ah, lightning strikes again!). Namely, the dark, bloody mess that is all about sex and murder thanks to our evolution as murderous, rapacious beasts, can take over.
Clinical lore and a small number of published studies report that the selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) intensify dreaming. This study examines the dream effects of paroxetine and fluvoxamine in order to both increase clinical knowledge of these agents and to test an important potential method for probing the relationship between REM sleep neurobiology and dreaming in humans. Fourteen normal, paid volunteers (4 males, 10 females; mean age 27.4 year, range 22–39) free of medical or neuropsychiatric symptoms as well as of psychotropic or sleep affecting drugs completed a 31-day home-based study consisting of: 7 days drug-free baseline; 19 days on either 100 mg fluvoxamine (7 Ss) or 20 mg paroxetine (7 Ss) in divided morning and evening doses; and 5 days acute discontinuation. Upon awakening, subjects wrote dream reports, self-scored specific emotions in their reports and rated seven general dream characteristics using 5-point Likert scales. Dream reports were independently scored for bizarreness, movement and number of visual nouns by three judges. REM sleep-related measures were obtained using the Nightcap ambulatory sleep monitor. Mean dream recall frequency decreased during treatment compared with baseline. Dream report length and judge-rated bizarreness were greater during acute discontinuation compared with both baseline and treatment and this effect was a result of the fluvoxamine-treated subjects. The subjective intensity of dreaming increased during both treatment and acute discontinuation compared with baseline. Propensity to enter REM sleep was decreased during treatment compared with baseline and acute discontinuation and the intensity of REM sleep increased during acute discontinuation compared with baseline and treatment. The decrease in dream frequency during SSRI treatment may reflect serotonergic REM suppression while the augmented report length and bizarreness during acute SSRI discontinuation may reflect cholinergic rebound from serotonergic suppression.
When the chemistry of the brain was mastered somewhat, psychiatrists were reduced to handing out prescriptions, not figuring out the hidden mind. I chat often with psychiatrists because my husband was brain damaged at work so I go with him to the hospital a lot. They all admit they know the medicines are not working but it is all economical: hospitals don't want to pay for analysis, they want some medicine and then turn the insane back out into the streets again. All the psychiatrists I have known all wish they could practice their art for they understand what is going on but there is no profit margin in all this thinking and talking!
Therapists try to manually get people to function but this is limited to say the least. Namely, the Skinnerian view of humanity covers only a very small and I would say, rather less important, aspects of the human mental landscape. As far as I am concerned, many totally deranged people are running the world because we are all insane at some level. But the red balloon of our military/industrial complex and the wars we are waging and cooking up can and have killed millions, not mere dozens.
And the NASA mess: two major crimes in one year so far? The suicide/murder there yesterday is getting near zero press due to the latest mass murder but again, it was a loner who was freaking out. Bet he was on SSRI drugs too. As we explore space, we must also focus on the innermost chambers of the soul. That place where all our dreams are hatched.
Time to rewatch '2001' again. Heh.